To Whom It May Concern

Today has been one of those days that I'm sure 93% of single girls get every once in awhile...

One of those "Wow I'm really depressed that I'm still single and not even remotely close to dating anyone.... I want to eat all that I can possibly fit in muh bellah and watch depressing movies like 'P.S. I Love You' or 'Charly'... This week I'm going to the gym 5 times and washing my hair more than 3 times and eating one salad a day so I feel like a desirable woman even though 24 hours ago I felt totally fine... What is wrong with me?" kind of days....


Maybe its the fact that I have had a recent list of 15+ Facebook reception/bridal shower/baby shower invites. Maybe its the fact that 4 couples stood up in church to announce their recent engagements. Maybe its because I watched Zac Efron on the big screen yesterday in "The Lucky One" and the whole time wished I was Taylor Schilling. Maybe its the fact that I really haven't dated anyone seriously in... way too long.... Maybe its hormones. 


Regardless what the cause is, today I really dislike the Single Life. Tomorrow I'm sure I'll go back to normal... just living life and not complaining. But for now I'm going to wallow in self pity, eat a bowl of Blue-Bell Moolenium Crunch ice cream (our household favorite) and live vicariously through the life of some fictional heroine, like Elizabeth Bennet. 


As for the title of the post... This song by the Civil Wars is a favorite... mostly because it applies to me and every other single woman out there...


To Whom It May Concern by The Civil Wars

Why are you so far from me?
In my arms is where you ought to beHow long will you make me wait?I don't know how much more I can takeI missed youBut I haven't met youOh but I want toHow I doSlowly counting down the daysTill I finally know your nameOoo the way your hand feels round my waistThe way you laughThe way your kisses tasteI missed youBut I haven't met youOh but I want toHow I do, How I doI've missed youBut I haven't met youOh I missed youI haven't met youOh but I want toOh how I want toDear whoever you might beI'm still waiting patiently. 

Um I love them! And despite my current state of impatience, I 98% of the time I am waiting patiently for my one and only. The guy who will accept every flaw, appreciate all my quirks and bad habits, love me unconditionally for eternity and who will raise me up when I get down. Whether its in this life (crosses fingers) or the next, I have faith in the Lord's timing. It will happen when it is suppose to. I'm grateful for all that I have; I am truly blessed!



P. S. Totally different topic... But my 3 year old sister told her Primary teachers that she didn't need to be in class last week when they were learning about the Resurrection. When they asked her why, she said her Daddy died and she already knew that he would come back to life again. Wow! So all those times she would ask where he was and we'd explain it, she was listening! The Gospel is true!

Letter from Dad

Since I'm moving out soon (oh I don't think I've mentioned that... well I'm moving out hopefully in a month... anyway...) I decided to go through a box full of letters I've saved over the years. Most of them are from missionaries, some from friends or cousins, sweet notes from YW leaders... Then I found one letter from my Dad. It's not dated, so I have no idea when he wrote it. But I'll have you know he didn't write very many notes to me. My mom wrote a lot in behalf of my dad and herself, but this letter was written to me from him. Don't worry I cried. And I'm still crying. It's been 6 months and I miss him just as much as if it were yesterday.

Thank heavens I could still read it (despite the water damage... oh and don't mind the big fat tear stain).

It reads: 

"Dear Tori, 

     I just want to let you know how special you are to me. yes I know I never tell you often enough but I'm going to change that. 

     Tori you are the most driven child we have. When you wake up your mind to do something you make it happen. This will help you go far in life and makes me feel great as a father too. 

     Now of course you are beautiful and smart, you get this from me, unless mom is close by, then you better say it comes from her. 

     Tori I'm not just saying this because I'm your father. I hear this from a lot of people. You can do just anything you want. 

     I'm proud to call you 'daughter'. 

Love, Dad "

Now if that's not a tender mercy, I don't know what is! This is the highlight of my day.. probably week. I'm so grateful for the Plan of Salvation and the wonderful Gospel of Jesus Christ! I know I'll see my sweet Dad again. 

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